Happy Birthday to me!!

hahaha, yesterday was so amaaaazing..
i don't even realize that its not true..
OMG, don't you ever do such a thing to me again!!
I'm really shocked you know??
Aaaaargh..
Ahaha.
Thx for all.
Gue gbs crita dulu kygmana gue dkerjain.. tar yaa di post selanjutnya, soalnya ini lewat mobile. ahaha. keren ko. thx ya smuanya. especially Andra, Ayi, Manda, Ana, Adel, OSIS 08/09, NICANDER. wuahh. dbest lah kalian. ahaha.

D-1

Day-1
a Day before my birthday..
i wish my friends give me some little surprise..
But its only in my dream..
hahaha
fake laugh, fake smile..
i really want my crush (dabel yu kei) too greet me and say "Happy Birthday" to me.. ohh.. what a dream.. just dream. I hope it will cometrue. But its just a hope..

Huhuhu....
i'm soooooooo PATHETIC!!!
cryin till my tears become a river..
ooh ooh!!

I wan to make a poem for him.. the only one that i really love..

I saw someone
that so gorgeous
i thought he was an angel
but he is wingsless

he can't fly
but he can flying my heart

he's just sweet
like a morning dew
erased all my sadness
makes my life beautiful..

so.. don't go
just come to me
coloring my heart
like a rainbow

ohh you're the only one, the only one..
the only one.. in my heart..


lv u so

Road to my birthday

I dont know what will happen next..
is it going better?
or maybe it will getting worse?

This is just my little hope..
I hope that my 16th birthday will be amazing..
will cheer me up..
will make me forget of all my sorrow..

These are my wishes..
1. I hope Giring will be happy forever and so will Qibil
2. I hope my life will be better than yesterday
3. I hope he knows i love him and he loves me too
4. I hope me and my family will always be happy forever
5. I hope i get the best from my God. Thx Allah.

Ohh God.. i want you to approve my wishes!!!
i love you so much!!!
Hope will be better!!!

The Cry

So many horibble things happen to me. And it makes me sick. im cryin all day long. everytime i have nothing to do, my mind is thinking about the harsh truth about me. i can't tell those f*ckin things here.

i hate this life right now. i want go back to the past. to fix all my mistakes. to destroy all my bad.

i want to jump. out of these terrible days. i want to be alone for a moment.

i'm totally pathetic. ridiculous. goodless. i dont want those bad things stick on me. i want to be a good, smart, kind, funny people.

to all my friends, i want you all to help me. to share me your love and kindness. to make myself better. i need you all. sorry for all the mistakes i've done to you. i love you all. you're the best ;)